What’s wrong with me if people I should “love” make me sick?

Panic! Us, My Fall Out Romance.: People I should “love” make me sick. What’s wrong with me?
It seems that the more I get to know someone and experience them, the less I like them compared to the beginning. I’m never attracted to or return feelings for nice guys who like me. Most of my relationships last a week until I get sick of them, if I even decide to date the guy or if they can stand me. I’ve had four different best friends in the past three years. A few days ago I stopped talking to everyone I should care about or my “group” that I’ve had for about 10 months. Looking at them, it makes me want to throw up thinking about being close to them or other people.

I have a strong disliking for my family, except for my eldest brother and theres only one good friend I’ve kept since 5th grade but we fight occasionally.

I’m extremely easy to disappoint and I expect alot from people, because I give alot. If I doubt people or if I get too close to someone and they try to get close back, I shut them out, stop talking, and go find someone else.

I’ve always done this… I feel like I can’t keep anyone who makes me happy. I want to keep friends… my old friends were amazing… but looking at them and thinking about them makes me feel like I’m gonna throw up…

What’s wrong with me? Does anyone have this problem too?

I’m extremely friendly and outgoing to this point. I’m very open and happy… I’m not any more depressed than the next teenage girl. I’m actually pretty relaxed not having close friends… Like I can focus on school and it’s drama free and I feel top of my game. I talk to my acquaintances for fun, but making friends again..? Bleh.

I deleted all my contacts and my facebook to get away from everyone. They’re worried and keep texting and calling me…. but I can’t bring myself to answer.

I shouldn’t be happy like this but I am. WOW. HELP?
Please do not answer this question just to be a smart ass! You guys are super funny, I know that, mommy and daddy may not know that so you have to troll online so people can go, “HAh! THEyr SO SMRT!! AND FUNY TOO!!111!!” but I’m looking for some honest advice. so GTFO.
I know it’s only my opinion that matters but I don’t know I enjoy analyzing my problems until I know them inside out and I wanted to see if anyone had a somewhat explanation or relatable story. <3

Answers and Views:

Answer by emily
tell them you need your spaace and need to clear your mind..

Answer by M M
Happiness is in short supply in the 21st century.

Answer by undertheshrine
Have you considered a chemical imbalance in your brain?

Or perhaps some prior head damage?

Or perhaps you’re just incapable of long term relationships.

Or perhaps you’re a normal teenager going thru what all teenagers go thoruogh.

Answer by someguy
you just sound like a b****

Answer by Brandon
Seek help.

Answer by Crushed by the Honey Pot
No, there’s nothing wrong with you. There’s nothing wrong with me and the last thing we need is help. People I’m supposed to “love” make me sick too.
I didn’t shed a single tear when any of my grandparents died. I prefer to either be with other people (and those are very few) or alone rather than with my family; except my mom, she’s cool. But more often than not I’ll skip the family dinner to go curl up and read a book. Or I’ll eat in the kitchen by myself. If I’m watching t.v and someone else comes in I leave.
I spend hours and hours alone and I like it that way.
You don’t need help and neither do I. Sometimes people need other to entertain them and make them happy. Other times, people are independent and self sufficient, all you need is you.
It’s perfectly normal, at least I think so, and when it comes to me, that’s the only opinion that matters. How about you?

Answer by Alex Davidson
i guess it only depends on you!!!what ever you put your mind up for you can do..so if you decide not to love then its yourself alone…i guess you’ve put the idea of i tired of you in your head and you can change it.

Answer by Mark
Who said that having friends or boyfriends is mandatory?!
if you don’t want any friends just don’t have and live your happy life until someone will broke your heart or help you in a hard situation and you’ll call him friend 🙂

Answer by Morrigan
Well ask yourself that if you’re happy without friends, and that they literally make you sick, then what’s the problem?

However, perhaps you’re not really quite as happy as you’d like to be? You sound a little conflicted and confused, for example you say, “I’m extremely easy to disappoint and I expect a lot from people, because I give a lot. If I doubt people or if I get too close to someone and they try to get close back, I shut them out, stop talking, and go find someone else. I’ve always done this… I feel like I can’t keep anyone who makes me happy. I want to keep friends..”.

You’re easy to disappoint because you have high standards, and when the same is not given in return, you walk away from the friendship. This means that you’re very sensitive.

Were you abandoned as a child? This pattern of destroying friendships and relationships when you feel someone isn’t giving their all like you do is very common with adults who were adopted, or had a parent walk out on them when they were young.

If that’s the case, you should ask your doctor to refer you for some kind of talk therapy, like Cognitive Behavioural Therapy. It teaches you that thoughts creates emotions, and emotions causes action – in your case, your negative thoughts are causing you to distrust, and end what could be rewarding, stable, enjoyable relationships and you seem to be sabotaging them for no good reason that even you yourself can understand. So I’d advise you to find some support.

About you deleting all your Facebook friends and contacts, and ignoring people when they try to contact you to see that you’re OK; well that is very selfish of you, and a little cruel. Please do let them know you’re OK, they deserve that, at least.

Can you speak to your mum about this situation regarding how you feel about your friends? She will want to help you and would arrange for you to see your doctor.

Imagine if you had no friends in ten, twenty years time? It would be a boring, lonely existence, wouldn’t it? Friendship is about compromise, and knowing that no one is perfect, and we all make mistakes, but continuing to love them anyway (unless you decide that they’re no good for you as a friend, but that’s a different story).

It’s time to grow up now and think about possible consequences for your actions, and start thinking of how much you can hurt people by treating them in such a way. They’ll find it confusing and think there’s something wrong with THEM, when in fact, it’s you.

I should say here that you do sound like a lovely person, you describe yourself as friendly, outgoing, open and happy. If that’s true, then why not share those wonderful character traits with people who share those traits with you? You really will miss out on a lot of fun and life lessons if you insist on constantly dumping friends for nothing.

You say you have a very old friend, well why not start nurturing that friendship, and choose perhaps two other people who you like, to sometimes spend time with. Make a pact with yourself that you won’t treat these good people badly, no matter what.

Remember the Golden Rule: Treat others as you would have them treat you.

Good luck, I wish you many beautiful friendships in your life, and the wisdom to know how lucky you are to have them.